[gennee]

I was reading some short stories I had written several years ago. They revealed that I was gender questioning as far back as 2002. I didn't even know what it was that I was wrestling with. I felt different since my thirties. By 2002 those feelings were more intense and more frequent.

I fancied myself a connoisseur of the alternative culture, a stripper, and interested in dabbling into the leather culture. None of those areas quite fit me. It was in 2005 that I found out what was rumbling inside of me. I got this urge to try on my spouse's skirt. I never try on women's clothing in my life. When the urge would not go away, I tried on a skirt. Instead of the urge going away it grew stronger. I tried on skirts, blouses, panties, dresses and other women's articles. I awhile I realized that I was hooked.

In time, it was revealed that I was a crossdresser. For weeks I was in denial wonder where this was going to lead. Finally I admitted that I liked wearing women's clothing. All the tension and stress dissipated. A short time later I embraced my transgender identity. I was liberated and completed.

Today, I am a happy and content transgender and crossdresser. Those early struggles over gender has led me to a family I never knew that I had. I feel richer for having gone through those struggles and desire to help others who are wrestleing with gender identity issues.

Gennee